depression

I seem to get depressed a lot. I don't know why... Sometimes I just feel like no one cares and that no one would listen to me. I feel like even if I tried to talk to someone, they wouldn't really listen, understand, or have any sympathy for me. I guess I feel like I can't really talk to anyone. I have friends that would probably listen to me, but I guess I just don't feel comfortable talking without it being awkward. I'm afraid of just losing control and crying and weirding out whoever I'm talking to.

I've always found it much easier to talk to guys than girls. Sometimes there are rare exceptions when I feel like I can talk to older people, especially women... like the lady I work with now and someone I worked with last year.

Hopefully this feeling will pass soon...

22nd Birthday

Does anyone have any ideas for what I could do with my friends on my birthday? I usually have no freakin clue what to do and this year is no different. I guess we could play games or go somewhere, like go ice skating at Grapevine Mills Mall. I figure we'll go out to eat somewhere (any ideas where?) and then do something. I like the Texas Roadhouse, but I know it's kind of expensive for most people. I like Abuelo's and PF Chang's...

I also don't really know what I want as presents. I went to Best Buy the other day trying to look for stuff I'd want. The only things I can come up with are:

1. Finding Neverland DVD
2. 256 MB USB drive (the silver one with three different colors for covers)
3. Final Fantasy X-2
4. Final Fantasy X-2 Players Guide
5. Lord of the Rings Trivial Pursuit - pretty cool, but also pretty expensive ($50)
6. Final Fantasy VII - I found it on Amazon for like $20 - I don't really want this that much...but I don't have any other ideas

I'm pretty sure someone in my family will get me Finding Neverland. I think someone is getting me FF X-2 already. Oh well.

I have a giftcard from my last birthday that I haven't used yet at Borders. So I don't need any books really.

I need to get new tires for my car, more contacts, and some glasses perhaps. I get tired of wearing contacts all the time, but my eyes are so bad that my lenses would be absurdly thick and so any frames I get will look very dumb on me. Andy mentioned those thick black ones that were in style in the 50s or whatever, but I dunno...

I guess that's it for now.

hugs are the best thing ever

Ok, well maybe not, but hugs are really nice. I like a lot of affection and so I think it's really cool when my friends give me random hugs. I would hug my friends all the time, but I'm afraid they'll think I'm weird or that they might be weirded out. If you're one of those people, then there is something wrong with you. :-P

So the next time you see me, give me a hug!

stereo messed up

My Sony stereo that is only about a year old won't play cds any more. It makes noises when it tries to play them. It sucks because I listen to music while I go to sleep. I think my dad gave it to me for my birthday last year, but I can't remember. I think the warranty only lasts a year. I don't know where he got it though. If it's not under warranty anymore, I don't know what to do. I guess I could just take it to Best Buy and see if they'd fix it. This sucks.